I am a 28 years old woman. I have been in a relationship with a guy since 2014. He’s the only person I have ever loved. I never cheated on him. I was extremely loyal, and he was the centre of my life. When we got to know each other initially, my father passed away, and I started to fill that void with this relationship. So, I automatically became emotionally dependent to the point that I became emotionally handicapped.
Our relationship went through a lot of ups and downs due to it being long-distance, but I always tried to work things through despite all the problems. Finally, this year, just two months ago, he decided to end things with me. He has given me many reasons as to why we don’t have a future together, but nothing seems to make sense to me, although it makes a lot of sense to him. He’s also looking for a girl for marriage.
I am in such a bad place that I think about ending my life every second of the day. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to move on, but even thinking about the fact that he might end up with someone else is ripping my heart out. I feel a part of me is dying every day. I really pray to God to heal me, to help me accept the reality as soon as possible, and for this suffering to end. I can’t take the pain anymore.