I am 22 years old. From childhood, my father has been very toxic. He used to beat me, my siblings, and my mother frequently. When I joined university in another city, I lived in a hostel. I met a boy who took great care of me, praised me, loved me, and defended me. He showed me what it feels like to be loved. However, my family forced me to marry a man who is 10 years older than me. The boy I loved wanted a court marriage, but I couldn’t let my parents down. I feared my father might harm my siblings.
After the marriage, my husband found some pictures in my deleted folder and beat me badly. I begged him not to tell my family. He forgave me and allowed me to return to university. I swear to God, I never contacted the boy I loved to honor my promise to my husband. But my husband suddenly demanded that I leave my studies just two months before my finals. I refused, and he told my family lies about me and my ex, claiming we were physical. My family and husband prevented me from completing my graduation.
My father beats me every day, and I feel powerless. I haven’t even graduated yet; I was pursuing a medical degree. My husband is an Australian citizen, and he hasn’t submitted the documents for my process. He is extremely toxic. I still miss and love the boy from before. My husband won’t let me forget him. It’s been 8 months since the marriage, and he abuses me frequently and asks for nudes daily. As his wife, I can’t refuse. I have even attempted suicide, but I am still here. I thought my husband would be so wonderful that I could forget the hardships of my childhood.