I am 28 years old female and came to the USA last year after my marriage. My husband finished his master’s degree at Stanford and now works in a big tech company in Silicon Valley. He earns more than $425k per annum. He loves me a lot and got my H4 EAD quickly so we could start our life together. He is a real gentleman, he gives me full freedom to roam around, never looks at my phone, and says he trusts me more than anyone.
I do not work or study, I just stay home and use his money for shopping, eating out, and whatever I want. Sometimes I feel bored sitting alone all day. So I opened Tinder, Coffee meets, bagel, bumble, hinge just for fun. I was shocked to see so many handsome American men who look tall, muscular, with blue eyes and perfect bodies. It feels like a dream for a girl like me from India. I get dozens of matches every day.
When I want to meet them, I tell my husband I am going to see a female friend I met on Instagram. Then I go on secret dates. These guys take me to cool brunch places, pay for everything, talk sweetly, and later invite me to their fancy apartments in San Francisco. I feel excited and free, living my best life. Now I want to become a mother, but I am confused. My husband is short and not very good-looking(dusky).
The American men look like movie stars, and I want my child to be tall, fair, and beautiful like a little prince with the best genes. These men only want to date me for fun, they will not marry an Indian girl because of culture. But I already have a caring husband who gives me money and security.
I do not want to break his trust or look bad, yet I dream of a perfect looking baby. I keep thinking whose child should I have? Can I ask my husband to get IVF from American I know it’s so expensive in USA. I want cute white kids. I want my next generation should be more fair.
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