I’m a medicine final year student 22 years female and I recently tried dating after being single all my life and I’ve met someone like 4 months ago not for dating nothing just as a fellow medical student and a very good friend. We are in same year so we became friends easily he has same birthday as some one I lost which made me badly attached. He proposed me 3 times but I said no because I’m not ready for it and once he tried to speak above our boundary which made me uncomfortable and I blocked, later I unblocked and thought I would give it another chance as I had very few people this close.
So I spoke as we both know we are getting feelings on each other and he started giving inconsistent talking then I asked and his answer was constantly speaking is impossible but I was struck between a worse situation so I completely stopped speaking as I thought it was a hint and confronted it and I suddenly felt am I being too much needy ?
Being an eldest daughter and someone who achieves too much at a very small age I’ve always felt that constant need of reassurance always like a text always and a call at least thrice a day and now I started dating after that incident so, I talked with 9 to 10 guys but with none I felt that connection as if I need to share my vulnerabilities and to feel someone is there for me none , literally none and now I’m questioning myself am I not dating material or are my high standards that biggest problem, I really don’t know 🥴