I’ve been in a serious, loyal relationship with my girlfriend for the past 3 years. We’ve had countless ups and downs, endless fights, and yet every time we found our way back to each other because we believed we were soulmates. We promised each other marriage, no matter what. She’s been my world for years. Then came her. A colleague. A friend. A girl who had just come out of a traumatic, abusive relationship. She was broken, hurt, and lost. Like everyone else, I offered her comfort but somewhere along the way, I became her emotional anchor.
And without realizing it, she became mine. It started innocently. Just talks. Then confessions. Then emotional intimacy. She saw the darkest parts of me. Understood me in ways my girlfriend never had. Supported me without expectations. Made me feel… safe. And I don’t even know when it happened, but I started to feel something real for her. Despite knowing I had a girlfriend. Despite her knowing it too. We both ignored the obvious lines. One day after weeks of bottled emotions we kissed.
It escalated. We got physical. I was shattered afterward, full of guilt and regret. But also full of confusion. How could something so wrong feel so real? We tried to pull away, telling ourselves it was temporary, that this couldn’t go on. But how do you walk away from someone who loves you so insanely, so purely, without ever asking for anything in return? She loved me like crazy. I loved her too. Not out of lust, but because she gave me the exact emotional support I always craved.
Now, here’s the kicker. My girlfriend she loves me too. But she’s more controlling. She doesn’t always understand my needs. She restricts me in ways that make me feel suffocated. She wants to marry me because of her own childhood trauma, I promised I’d never leave her. I can’t leave her. That would destroy her. And I’m not a monster. But the other girl? She’s ready to walk away for my happiness. She said she’ll love me silently even after I’m married. She doesn’t demand anything just wants to see me happy, even if it’s not with her.
And that destroys me more than anything. I know I messed up. I know I’m the villain in this story. I shouldn’t have crossed the line. But here I am, stuck between two women who love me unconditionally. One I’ve promised a future to. Another who gave me everything without ever asking for a title. So what now? Who do I hurt? How do I live with the guilt of breaking someone who didn’t deserve this pain? How do I choose between love and responsibility between what feels right and what is right?
I know I sound like an absolute jerk. But trust me, it’s not that easy when two people love you like their life depends on it and you love them both back.