At the beginning of this year, I met a guy (M, 27) on a dating app. Despite our age gap, we hit it off immediately. We were in separate cities, so for a few months, we only chatted. After that, I went to meet him, and it was amazing. I had never fallen for anyone before, but after meeting him, it felt like I could finally be with someone. I started visiting his city frequently, and we even began a live-in relationship. My family is aware of everything, and they like him, which is a bonus.
However, one important thing to note is that we are not officially committed yet it’s more of a situationship. But at the same time, we are planning to take the next step soon. Additionally, our sex life is going great. Before meeting this guy, I had dated numerous others but never felt any sexual attraction to them and even thought I might be asexual. However, after meeting him, my sexual desires started to surface. That said, these desires are somewhat overwhelming. Now, I go on dating apps, find older men, flirt with them, and engage in sexting.
Once my sexual urges subside, I block them. I’ve only chatted and occasionally sent some pictures nothing more. This behavior doesn’t hold any emotional meaning for me. I just do it to satisfy my sexual urges. I don’t know if this should be considered cheating, but I can’t seem to stop myself.