I am in love with a guy who is five years older than me, who is currently my boyfriend. Our meeting was very random and happened online when we started talking to each other. Initially, we were just normal friends as I was not much interested in him, but he used to make efforts to talk to me every time. We used to share everything with each other.
At that time, I was in a relationship with a guy from my college, which was my first relationship, but that guy was a playboy and was not at all serious about me. He used to treat me badly, saying that his first love cheated on him, and hence he would do the same with other girls who got serious about him. I decided to leave him because it was affecting my mental health.
I used to tell all of these incidents with my ex to my current boyfriend, and in return, he also told me about his past relationship, which was a long term one. It was his first relationship, but due to religious differences, they parted ways. He used to say that he still had some feelings for that girl. With time, we got very close, talking daily through texts and calls.
Then he said he wanted to meet me, so we met one day casually as friends. Over time, I felt like he had feelings for me, and I started falling for him too. I asked him about it, and he confessed. So we got into a relationship, only online, and I have met him only once. But as time passed, things started changing, and I began to feel like he only remembered me when he wanted to talk or when he felt lonely.
I wanted him to be serious about me, but he didn’t seem to be. One day, there was a fight between us, and then he told me that there should be no discussion about our future and that he wanted only a casual relationship. That broke me completely. I was devastated after hearing this. If that’s all he wanted, then why did he make me feel like I was important to him? He still searches for his ex’s name and follows her.
Sometimes he discusses future plans with me, and other times he ignores my feelings because he doesn’t want to face reality. Whenever I want to talk to him, he makes excuses like he’s playing games or says something else. He only talks when he is in the mood. What kind of person is he? All I need is his love and attention, which is the bare minimum. Why is he giving me stress, anxiety, and overthinking?
Question: Is he worth trusting and waiting for?
Option 1: Yes
Option 2: No
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