I was searching for a place where I could vent out my feelings, my sufferings from the past year. I’m a regular follower of this website, so I thought this would be the right place to share and feel a bit lighter. I matched with a guy on Bumble in 2021 during the peak of the lockdown. Just to give a disclaimer, I chose to be on the dating site after six years of being out of a relationship.
When we matched, both of us were upfront about being heartbroken and looking for something serious, long-term, possibly leading to marriage. I’m demisexual, so emotional connection matters a lot to me. I decided to give it a try and see where it would go. It was a long-distance relationship. He was living with his family, and I was with mine. Still, he made me believe in him.
Everything seemed so beautiful, like the kind of love story you dream of after a long heartbreak. I started seeing a future with him. Eventually, both our companies asked us to return to our respective work locations. He was in Bangalore, and I was in Pune. Despite the distance, things were still going great, just as we had hoped.
Now coming to the important part, we never met in person for over 1.5 years. Every time I asked to meet, he had an excuse, a job switch, family issues, or some personal commitment. I also used to go home frequently, so I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Finally, one day, I insisted that we meet to discuss our future. Instead of coming to see me, he convinced me to visit him, and I agreed.
I stayed at his place for two days, but he was a completely different person in real life. He showed no affection or care. I felt like I was forcefully staying at his place. When I returned, he began ignoring my calls. I tried reaching out, but he got angry and disconnected my call. Despite calling multiple times, he never responded.
Eventually, I found out through LinkedIn that he was talking to another woman during the same time he was supposedly in a relationship with me. I felt utterly betrayed. I regret everything I did for him. Throughout our online relationship, he never made me doubt him, not once. I never expected to be treated like this.
Now, I’m struggling to hold myself together. I keep wondering what went wrong. What did I do wrong? I feel shattered, devastated, like I’ve lost my self-respect. And now I’m scared to trust again, just when my parents have started looking for marriage alliances. I feel so lost.
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