I was in a relationship with a girl from my 12th standard. She was the most beautiful, kind hearted, sweet, and ego less person I had ever met in my life. We were in a loving relationship for 15 long years. In our friend circle, we were known as the perfect couple loving, caring, no fights, just pure loyalty and deep love for each other.
When many couples around us were breaking up, having trust issues or fights, everyone used to look at us and say, “You both are made for each other.” Our bond only grew stronger with time. After our studies, we were in different cities, but distance never affected our connection. Even after 10 years, we could still talk for hours, like two people who just fell in love. She was truly an angel sent from heaven.
I got a decent job after completing my MBA. She did B.Tech and got placed in a reputed IT firm. Then came the turning point her parents started looking for alliances. My parents, who always supported us, approached them with a formal proposal. But because we belonged to different castes, they rejected it without even considering.
Soon after, COVID struck. She started working from home. Her parents began mentally pressuring her, emotionally blackmailing and controlling her. They tried everything, from matrimony sites to house arrest. She stood firm, fought for me, and cried to me every single day. I was her only support. I tried everything I could from my side and my family’s to convince her parents, but they always had reasons to say no.
“We want someone from abroad,” “We prefer an engineer like her,” “Not someone from a small town…” She was a soft hearted angel born into a family that couldn’t see her pain. For over a year, she endured emotional torture. And then one day… silence. No calls, no messages. She blocked me from everywhere.
I tried to reach out, but deep down, I understood what had happened. She couldn’t take the pressure anymore. She had given up and allowed her parents to choose a groom for her. A few months later, I heard she was getting married to someone settled in the UK. The last message I received from her still echoes in my heart:
“I’m sorry… I’m not able to handle this anymore. I only have prayers for your beautiful heart, for your true love, and for your pure soul…” I was shattered. I lost myself couldn’t sleep, couldn’t focus, almost lost my job. I was in pain like never before. One of my friends, who knew her cousin, confirmed the marriage was happening soon. I cried for days and nights.
Some of my friends even got the groom’s number and told me to talk to him – to try stopping the wedding. But I couldn’t do it. I didn’t want him to think poorly of her. I didn’t want to give her a bad image if she had already chosen to move on. I never tried contacting her again. But not a single day has gone by without thinking of her. I cried for months. I even had suicidal thoughts and attempts.
But some kind souls around me saved me… and here I am, typing this. Last November, I got married through an arranged setup for my parents’ happiness. They had seen me break down slowly every day, and I wanted to give them some peace. Before marriage, I told my wife everything about my 15 years long relationship. And all she said was:
“It’s rare to find a man who has loved one woman for 15 years. I’m lucky to be your wife.” That’s when I met my second angel. My wife is loving, caring, and so full of life. We are doing well now. She brings me joy. But there’s just one thing I’ve kept from her the fact that I haven’t fully moved on. That’s the only lie I’ve told her.
She thinks I’ve healed. But I know the truth. I’m still haunted by memories of my ex. Every day. Every night. Though I’m slowly becoming better, I haven’t been able to forget her completely. I have no anger toward my ex or her family. Life taught me that everything happens for a reason.
But now, I just want to forget. I want to fully love the angel who chose me now… who loves me with all her heart. So I’m here asking you all how do I truly move on? How do I overcome these deep, buried memories? Will this pain in my heart live with me till the end of my life?
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