Hey, I really need to share something that’s been on my mind and weighing heavy on my heart. I’ve been in a relationship since 9th class. It started off young and immature, but it turned into love. I’ve never been with or loved anyone else. He’s from a very poor background, different caste, and honestly his family situation is really complicated. His dad has two wives, he has four brothers and a sister still to be married.
His mom has an affair, and society talks about it openly. They don’t even own a house, and they have no reputation where they live. Now, my parents found a guy for me. Same caste, super rich 300 crore family, 44 LPA salary, stable life. They want me to choose him, and even my boyfriend says I should go for it. He tells me, “Tumhare maa baap ka budhapa sukoon mein guzrega.”
And yet, I chose him. I told my parents, they beat me, things got ugly, but I asked for time at least till I finish my B.Tech (I’m in 3rd year now), and they agreed. But here’s the worst part I’m struggling to say…I feel like he’s only with me for physical needs now. I was 17 when he first forced me into being physical. That went on for about a year. Later, it became consent. Maybe because I got emotionally attached or just used to it.
But now, when I say “no,” he becomes a totally different person. Cold. Distant. Almost like I don’t matter without that part. Now I know I am wrong everybody i know but please help me to get through it my mother says if u sacrifice your caste and society reputation boy should be perfect but if I marry him and then don’t provide physical needs if I don’t give consent will he love me same.
I asked him openly why u do so he said loving was easy part but now all the things is hard and he has stress he want to make house marry his sister and all yeah he is the one who is doing all things his father is really irresponsible and alcoholic. He says leave me and find better partner cause I deserve better and I know I do but I want him to be better. I said if u love me why cant you be better.
He said this is not instagram khud ko bhi bechuga to bhi apke parivar jaisa ameer nahi bnuga dimag se socho sb log hasege mai nahi chord rha nahi dusri ldki ko dekhuga jb tk aap settle nhi hote his words now you think him bad for not taking my consent before sex let me tell u one time he talked to my bestie my bestie called him and they talked for 1hour nobody told me and lied to me that talking to my dad.
And all when I confronted thet lied and told me I was overreacting so I beat him nicely that he started crying and called his mom that I beat him he make me feel insecure by taking her name i grabbed his hair and beat him2nd time I know I am wrong but I was kid too back then I know mai behak gyi thi jaldi then I asked astrology they told marriage is not possible so I started worshiping Mahadev.
I’m not hindu for context my parents will tear me if they know doing naam Jaap and all and suddenly I feel don’t marry him for his behavior I need respect now
1.permanand Maharaj said ki sharir ka Nirwa krliya to shadhi kro
2.another Maharaj said ki agr ek baar bhi usne jbrdsti krliya to u he lost paremeshwar wala position
I matched kundli and out of 36 ashtaloot only 1 gun. Milan has happened shadhi to teekegy maa baap manege nhi bhag kr maa baap bhi Haaaye marege aur nahi teekegy puri zindagi single rhna possible nhi h maa baap zbrdsti Peet kr shadhi kra dege kya kru ovary cancer krlu pregnant nahi ho paugy to koi shadhi nhi krega phir bf Maseha ban kr aayega shadhi krne.
Help me guys don’t abuse me in comment section bhaot soch kr yeh yha post kri hu please paile hi mental health fucked up hai pr meri surrounding mujhse zyda buri thi at age 20 they have 40+ bodycounts idk just help me the situation se bahar nikal do yr please.
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