I’m 26 years old and my life is in complete chaos. I was in a relationship from 21 to 24 and when it ended, it wrecked me completely. I couldn’t breathe in my own home anymore because every single wall screamed his name. I stayed silent for a year, suffering alone, and then finally decided to leave the country. I quit my job in India and moved abroad thinking I could start over and bury every single memory.
And that’s where I met him. A Pakistani guy. Total accident. He worked for a major airline and I bumped into him during a visa related process. That day I had lost money in a taxi and was exhausted. I vented to him without even realizing it. He was calm, kind, helpful. We exchanged numbers. I didn’t think much of it.
But it started. Calls turned into long conversations. Messages turned into comfort. He started showing interest in me. I told him to stop, told him I wasn’t interested in a joke. But he kept talking, and I started feeling something. He said all the right things, made me feel wanted again. We met one day. I only intended to talk. But he kissed me. Said he loved me. Said he wanted to marry me.
In that moment I felt like someone finally saw me for who I was. But something felt off. I asked him if he was married. He paused. Then admitted it. Yes. He had a wife. I was crushed. I cut him off immediately. No calls. No messages. Three months. I tried to rebuild myself again. And then one day we met by accident. I broke down in front of him. I hugged him.
And everything I had buried came rushing back. We got close again. Physically. Emotionally. I didn’t know what I was doing but I couldn’t stop myself. He said he loved me. I wanted to believe it. Then I found out he had a child. Yes. A whole child. And yet I was already in love with him. I didn’t know where to go or what to do. I had already crossed the line.
He tells me he’s never felt this way with anyone else. That I bring him peace. That I am his real connection. I believe him. Because I feel it too. But I know there’s no future. He has a wife. He has a child. And I’m the outsider who can’t stop loving him. Every time I try to walk away, I fail. Every time I think about ending it, I break. This is not what I planned for my life. I’m not proud. But I’m in it. Deep.
So what do I do now? My heart feels alive with him. But my soul is drowning.
Question: What should I do?
1. Leave him for good even if it breaks me
2. Stay and keep this a secret relationship
3. Ask him to end everything and choose me
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