Just after my breakup, I started talking with him and eventually fell in love with him. It was a long distance relationship. He had a female best friend and never told her that he was in a relationship. I insisted he tell her. We were from the same college and met after the lockdown for exam purposes. His best friend, he, and I used to live in the same building and on the same floor. He often asked her to sleep at his flat, and because I was insecure, I would go there as well.
He never let me touch his phone, but mine was completely open to him. One time, his phone was unlocked by mistake, and I found out he was cheating on me with some random Tinder girl. Despite this, I gave him a second chance. I became so insecure and depressed because of it that I got hospitalized. I asked him not to spend that night with his best friend without me being there, but he did anyway. A few days later, I managed to get his phone again and read all the texts between him and his best friend.
They were making fun of how they would manage to sleep together and hold hands while sleeping. I realized he never loved me from the beginning and was always having sexual chats with his best friend. Once I found out, I called him and his best friend. I was shivering; she had no regrets, and he was begging me to stay with him. When I denied, he started crying and acting like his blood pressure had dropped. I was stupid enough to accept him back, but I was so traumatized by everything that had happened.
Even after two years, I still have nightmares and feel haunted by those events. I’m still with him, but I only care for him; I don’t love him anymore. Recently, I caught him again. He met another girl behind my back and was holding her in a picture. He said it was nothing and claimed he deleted their chats when I asked to see them. I broke up with him, but I’m still in contact with him and can’t break it off completely as he is the only person I talk to.
Still, a lot of the story is missing. It’s hard to explain. I know I’m the dumbest person on this planet… I had no guts to leave him, and still, I hesitate. He’s playing with my mind so well. I don’t know how to deal with this situation. Please suggest something.
It’s tough to let go of first love. But we don’t need to forget it. Just accept the reality and move on. Life teaches us a lession. This is your lession. Accept it and enjoy the future life.
It’s tough to let go of first love. But we don’t need to forget it. Just accept the reality and move on. Life teaches us a Lesson. This is your Lesson. Accept it and enjoy the future life.