I was in college when a guy proposed to me after just a month of friendship. I liked him too, so I accepted. We fell in love, and I dreamed of marrying him; I was willing to do anything for him. After some months, he asked to lose his virginity with me. I refused, as I wanted to wait until marriage. This led to an argument where he asked, “What are you going to do with your virginity?”
I stood by my decision, and he eventually agreed to wait. Later, he asked if I could give him a blowjob, saying his friends’ girlfriends did it. I refused again. One day, while we were alone, we kissed deeply. He touched me, pressed my breasts, and even opened my bra to see my upper body. I refused, but he forced it by opening it suddenly and saying “please.” He placed his mouth on me and then stopped.
Within a few days, he broke up with me over text, saying I wasn’t emotionally available and that he didn’t love me anymore. I begged him to meet me and say it in person, but he refused and eventually blocked me. For a year, I struggled to move on. Then, my current boyfriend entered my life. He messaged me, talked to my friends, and slowly learned about my past, except for the private details.
He spent two years proving his love, and I finally accepted. We’ve now been in a long-distance relationship for a year, and things are going well. But guilt haunts me. Even though I never had sex, the fact that another guy saw my upper body torments me. The man who will be my husband will never know this truth, and I don’t want to make him sad or overthink by telling him.
Question: Should I confess or keep it buried forever?
Option 1: Never confess
Option 2: Confess
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