I am from a very religious and orthodox family. I have a father who is too overprotective and doesn’t even allow me to go out alone with friends. Yet, I had been in love several times and have always wanted to escape my family with the person I love, due to having no freedom and wanting my own happiness.
I dated many guys during different periods of my college life. However close or intimate I got, I couldn’t fall for any of them and only ended up getting cheated on. I knew some only took advantage of me and lusted after me. When I wasn’t looking for love, I found this devil in disguise. My friends and I found him to be a gentleman.
In just two dates, I was head over heels and blind enough to trust him without even getting a verbal acceptance of love. I ran behind him even when he insulted me by saying that I am DISGUSTING (because of my past affairs), even after knowing that I was saving myself for marriage. He later said it was just a moment of anger.
I believed in the connection we had and always visited his place, since he couldn’t come to meet me. Once, when he tried being intimate, I couldn’t resist him. After that, I confessed to him that I wanted to marry him just like he had once said he wished a girl would propose in a relationship, after seeing a movie.
He didn’t even say it back but manipulated me into falling for him. He got busy with work and didn’t speak to me for several days not even a birthday wish. After a few days, I demanded an answer in person but was only met with touches, which was both devastating and disappointing. He says he can only communicate through being intimate.
I was broken and left him (of course, he didn’t stop me from leaving). He wanted to be friends when I wanted to end everything in person, but then just ended it through texts. IT’S BEEN FIVE DAMN MONTHS and I can’t forget him. And now, after all this time, he sends me a single DM asking for help.
IDK, I am torn contemplating whether to reply or ignore. That text is now haunting me, along with his usual memories. Should I help the person who destroyed me and is still destroying me? I can’t move on from my love for him, but I’m also not ready to accept him back. I can’t stop myself from texting back, even if it might just be a sassy one. I can help others, but when it comes to my own relationship.
I can’t make a decision. Should I accept him back if that’s what he wants…?
Question: What’s your opinion on my question? Kindly enlighten me.
1. Be kind enough to accept him.
2. Make him realize the mistake of losing you.
3. Ignore and heal yourself.
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