Back in 2020 to 2021, I had a friend (K). He was in a relationship with my best friend. As usual, friends sometimes engage in double meaning talks. We were doing that, and it turned into sexting and sharing some pictures. The very next day, I told my friend about all this. She said, “You are single, but he’s in a relationship, so he should be the one to think about it.”
She confronted him about it, and he said he wouldn’t repeat it again. My friend then told me to keep talking to him to see if he would repeat the same mistake and he did. I stopped talking to him there and then, and we are no longer in contact. Despite that, they continued their relationship after clearing things up.
Everything was going fine until 2024 when one of my college friends approached me for sexting, even though we didn’t have any such bond or conversations before. He is also in a relationship. We ended up sexting online 2 to 3 times, but then I realized it was wrong and told him we must stop. He agreed, but one day he met me in college and kissed me even though I said no.
After that, I made it clear I didn’t want to continue, and I blocked him. We are no longer in contact. I feel like I betrayed the girl he is in a relationship with. I don’t know if he feels the same guilt or not. But it didn’t stop there. There was a phase in my life when I was going through anxiety and depression. I felt like I had nobody to talk to about my mental health and problems.
So I started talking to random people online. Then I talked to a boy I really don’t know why I did all this he started sexting with me, and I got involved with him in sexting, that too from my real account (2 to 3 times). I have blocked him, but he tried to contact me again, and I blocked him once more. I also had an online friend with whom I shared a very good friendship.
But I really don’t know what happened to my mind. I ended up sexting with him too. But now I have stopped all of this, realizing my mistake and understanding that it’s wrong. My mental health, which was already affected, has worsened after thinking about all this. Sometimes I really feel like I shouldn’t marry anyone because after knowing all this, who would even trust me?
Now, I’m working to improve myself and become a better person. Sometimes I wonder why I always end up in such situations. There was a time when I used to live peacefully, but suddenly I got involved in all this. I feel ashamed. Please tell me if I am going to marry someone in the future, should I tell him everything? I feel I should be honest because no relationship survives on lies.
Question: Kya in future mujhe apne partner ko ye sab batana chahiye?
Option 1: Yes
Option 2: No
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