He’s 2 years older than me. We met when I was 19, and we’ve been together for 8 years now. Over the years, he has given me many reasons to doubt him what people nowadays call micro cheating but he always said it was a mistake and asked for forgiveness. At the beginning of our relationship, he hacked my WhatsApp. I found out because I was talking about him to my female friend, and he called me saying, “Is this how you talk to your friend?” and sent me screenshots of my chats.
I acted like I had betrayed him just for talking about him to a friend. I was naïve, and he manipulated me into thinking I had hurt his feelings. He claimed he didn’t intentionally hack my WhatsApp, that he was just trying something and didn’t think it worked. Some days, he would bring the world to me. Other days, he would belittle me for asking to see his phone. Even now, whenever I’ve asked for his phone, it ends in a huge fight.
And if by chance I do get to see it, I find him DMing some random girl for a coffee date or complimenting someone on how gorgeous she looks. When confronted, he excuses it by saying he’s just trying to set the girl up with a friend being a matchmaker by telling her how hot she looks in that red top! Once, he asked me to recharge his Jio number. I linked it to the app and saw call history showing a call to a random girl at 1 a.m. The next morning, I asked who he was talking to, and he said it was a colleague.
I asked him to send a screenshot of the call details, and he outright disrespected me in every way possible. I’ve broken up with him every time, but he never lets me go. He’ll do anything for my forgiveness except change himself. Even on my birthday, I saw a DM he had sent to a girl. When I asked about it, the chat had already been deleted. We fought on my birthday, and I cried, begging him to change, to be better. I even told him I didn’t want to see his face. But after a few days, he called again and begged for forgiveness.
This year, he said he would change for the better. But there have still been a few incidents that he could have handled well and yet he still doesn’t know how to be a good boyfriend. He’s not a bad person, but he is not able to love me the way I want to be loved. Should I wait until the end of this year, or should I just walk away now?