We were together for 6 long years. I loved him every single day with everything I had. In the beginning, he chased me for 2 years made me feel like we were soulmates. He said all the right things, did all the right things. I truly believed we were meant to be. We dreamed of a future together. I even left my well settled job just to prepare for the Civil Services Exam not just for my dream, but for our future. I poured everything into that dream: time, energy, over 5 to 6 lakhs of my parents’ money, and my heart.
I studied day and night thinking that once I clear this exam, no one can separate us. I worked hard, improved every single day, and just when everything was coming together he shattered everything. Turns out, while I was working on our future, he was planning a wedding with someone else set up by his parents. And the worst part? He didn’t even have the decency to tell me. I found out 7 months later. Yes, for 7 to 8 months, he kept cheating on me smiling on video calls, sending “I love you” texts, pretending like nothing had changed.
I was never the jealous or possessive type. I trusted him blindly. I didn’t call him much he always initiated, and I thought that was love. I was the chill, supportive girlfriend who believed in him. We were long distance, but we stayed connected every single day calls, video chats, voice notes, updating each other about every little thing. In 4 years, we never had a serious fight. I only ever cried when life seemed to pull us apart. And then one day, he got “tired” of my tears and left.
Just like that. I broke down. I was hospitalized for a month. Took therapy. Nothing worked. I begged him to at least stay as a friend just stay, but he had already erased me. He chose his parents’ choice over 6 years of loyalty, love, effort, and sacrifices. I supported him. I believed in him. I was loyal to the core. And still, it wasn’t enough. To this day, I cry thinking about us. I don’t even want him back anymore, but I still love him. And that’s the most painful part he walked away like
I meant nothing, and I’m here still trying to heal from something that was everything to me.