My Loved Boyfriend Used me Emotionally and Physically

Raised by a single mother, I had a horrible childhood. I’m terrified by the thought that if my mother ever leaves me forever, I’ll be completely alone in this world. I have no family beyond her. I’ve had relationships, tried to find true love, and got cheated on every single time. By the time I turned 28, I was determined to focus solely on my career. I promised myself I’d never fall into the trap of love again and had full faith in God’s plan. I started from scratch, rebuilding my life because my past relationships had destroyed me to the point where I couldn’t focus on anything.

My mother’s illness forced me to drop everything and work harder-and I did. Then a guy entered my life. He was nice, acted like a gentleman, cared so much that I genuinely thought, “This is the one.” No one had ever cared like that before. But the moment I let my guard down and fell for him completely, he started ghosting me. Blocking me. Abandoning me like I meant nothing. I was so traumatized, I hurt myself repeatedly. I lost myself. I didn’t want to live in this cruel world anymore-where no one is genuine.

I had told him everything about my past, about my family, before we even got into a relationship. I even backed off initially, knowing his father would never agree because of their conservative mindset. But during the relationship, my insecurities skyrocketed. He had many past relationships, stayed in touch with his exes, and admitted he never got serious with anyone. But with me, he said it felt different. He made me believe I was special. He was so caring-at least in the beginning. I had no social life and only wished for one thing: to settle down and have someone by my side forever.

Now, my mother and I are shattered. He finally walked away, after forcing me to give him closure. He said he’s getting married-by his father’s choice. He told me he did nothing wrong, that I was the one playing games. That I’m the kind of girl who traps men just to get married and for money. That’s not who I am. But I started believing his words and doubting myself. And now I can’t live with what he made me feel about myself. In the end, you’re left with nothing-just pain, and the echoes of every cruel word he said.

Is it wrong to cry when someone you loved so deeply abandons you like you were trash? He blames me, says I should’ve let him go earlier. That just because we were physically intimate doesn’t mean we had to get married. So I was just a trap to him. I still wish him happiness. But I can’t go to work. I stay alone. I can’t tell anyone what I’m going through. I don’t know what I’ll do without him.